i was in such a study mood this morning. now, not so much.
being in a long distance relationship is so hard sometimes. i love you so much.
left New York this morning to go back to school in Boston. even though it’s only for 18 days and i know it’s going to go by so fast, i was sooo sad to say bye to my parents. it’s going to be so hard to say bye to them after winter break when it’s basically for the whole semester. ugh
2 years ago, i feel like i had tumblr followers who were a bunch of strangers who actually cared about my life. now, all i have is people who like to look at my pretty pictures and a group of girls i went to high school with who basically just read this to mock me so yeah, i guess you can say tumblr isn’t something i take too seriously these days.
i still feel like i am on the journey to accepting and actually liking and appreciating myself. it just feels so hard sometimes because i feel like im testing the waters. like i do little things trial and error and slowly its adding up to be me. everyday i am becoming a little bit more comfortable with myself but its just so hard some days. and it’s weird because i never felt this way in high school because it felt like my identity was made up for me. now that im in college and all on my own, its up to me to be who i want. who i want to be is who i am. with that, i have to figure out who i am.
looking back i never thought i would be in a relationship with my boyfriend and here i am almost a year and a half later soo in love.
i love being home and seeing my best friend, family, and boyfriend. and getting to sleep for however long i want with no worries or responsibilities and being able to eat all the food i want without swiping in or paying.